Counseling

For the first time in my life I went to counseling this week.  I discovered two things:

1.  It is normal for women in their mid-thirties to feel like they are losing their minds.

2.  It is normal for someone who has been through a lot to finally get to a good place in life and then fall apart.

So... if I am normal... do I need counseling?

Because I am a loser...

I did the firm Express for one week...

I skipped last week (there was a holiday.... does that buy my an excuse?)

And somehow I have yet to get back on track.

ugh.  I am a loser!  :)

oh! But I went three days with NO candy.  I rock!

Piece by Piece

All the children have been removed from our cell plan and put on their own pre-pay plan.  They don't really get what just happened to them... I am certain of it.  Well... perhaps one or two understand. 

I created a spreadsheet entitled... "Chores For Hire".  I want them to have everything they want in life.   I just want them to learn that they just have to work to have it!

One step closer to ending the entitlement attitude!

:)  Happy Day!

Hmmmm.....

I have been on a bit of a soap box lately... kinda.  One morning last week, I was at my last straw with the kids.  It has been said time and time again that this generation is Entitled.  I am sick of it!  My job is NOT to be at your beck and call whenever you want to go somewhere or do something!

I went to work and my mind reflected on a book I had seen advertised as "coming soon" a few months ago. I hopped on Amazon.com and typed in... The Entitlement Trap  The book I had remembered came up and I decided there was no way I was just going to place an order.  In my own... must have it now kind of way... I wanted to know NOW how to make this stop!  So, I downloaded Kindle for computer and bought the book.  I am HOOKED!!  I highly recommend it.  My husband is still a little shell shocked as I have insisted that we cancel all the kids' cell phones and cease immediately to ever hand over cash or accept "I'll pay you Tuesday for a hamburger today" type metality.  I want to create a family mission statement, laws, economy and immerse the children in service.

Read the book.  Really.  It is changing my view in a big big way!

YEP

2 day since my last post.  Ask me what I have done differently.  No. Don't ask.  You don't want to know the answer.

MY BIGGEST DISAPPOINTMENT

When I lost my job in January, I was energized with the thought that NOW I would be able to exercise and focus on my body.  I was certain the pounds would just fall off of me.  Of course, that didn't happen, in fact I now weigh MORE than I did when I left work.  I am back to working and frustrated by the fact that most of my clothes don't really fit anymore (and NOT because they are too big).  I am sure that is common for many of us... we REALLY think THIS time we are going to lose the weight.  I just can't believe it when I think back at how many times I was certain I was going to lose it - but never did.

I really hope now is my time.  I have learned a few things.  It is not just about how much I eat - it is more about what I eat.  I need to really reduce and work towards eliminating sugar.  I love it... candy, desserts... I love it.  I need to reduce my carb intake and increase my vegetables and protein.  I need a food diary to keep myself honest.

I just bought The Firm Express.  I did the firm workouts years ago - and they were great.  This is much shorter and hopefully still as effective.  I heard about them at 3am a couple days ago when I couldn't sleep.

Speaking of sleep... that is the other huge one on my list.  I think it is a huge factor in weight loss... So, 10:30pm is my goal to be in bed every night.

It's time... really it is.